So we had our appointment with the dietitian yesterday. That was a complete waste of time. They told us stuff we already know. I know how much a serving is, I know how to read how many carbs are in a serving and to subtract the fiber from that amount. I thought it would be more along the lines of helping you figure out how to keep the foods he loves in his diet. How to do the meal plans that I read about everywhere. None of that happened.
But I do have good news to report. After dinner last night hubby's sugar was only 118!!!!! I couldn't be happier that the stronger meds are working!!!!! There is light at the end of the tunel. His sugars have been consistantly under 200!! We are making progress.
Today is his birthday. He wants pizza and wings for dinner tonight. So I am going to pizza hut to get dinner after work and to pick up his no sugar added ice cream cake from Carvel's. His mom, step dad and grandma are coming over for dinner and cake too. So it should be a good night! Two more days til the BIG party that he knows nothing about. I am so excited. I can not wait to see the look on his face. I hope it makes him happy! :)
Friday, November 30, 2007
Why Him??? That seems to be the question on his mind. I must say that I couldn't agree more. Hubby has been working the night shift this week and he was taking a quick nap before work. I had to wake him up so he could take his medicine and test his sugar before work. As he woke up he said "why bother living?" Wow, I know this is hard but I did not understand that comment. I said to him what do you mean? He said " I can't eat, I can't drink, I go to work and I am so tired I sleep during my breaks, that's why I am not eating at work. I come home and I sleep and I am still tired."
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
Dr. Appointment
Hubby woke up this morning with bad muscle cramps in his calves. He had the day off today so I called and got him in to see the doctor today instead of waiting until Monday. If the medicine has not worked yet it will not start working over the weekend! So he went and the doctor doubled his medicine and he does not seem worried, he thinks things look good. I don't know how since his numbers are the same as they have been since the last visit, but who am I and what do I know? He also explained that the muscle cramps are just because his body is going through a lot right now and that his potassium levels are fine so it is not that.
My husband works crazy hours and work swing shifts from time to time. This seems to have an effect on his sugar, because when he does not have to be up at 3:30 in the morning his sugar is much lower. So the doctor said he will keep that in mind while adjusting his meds. We don't want him to bottom out. So all in all not a bad visit, I just hope that the medicine will work. He does not go back for a month. That seems so far away. But hopefully a lot changes between now and then! In the mean time I do need to set up appointments with the foot doctor and eye doctor. So we will def be busy with appointmens!
My husband works crazy hours and work swing shifts from time to time. This seems to have an effect on his sugar, because when he does not have to be up at 3:30 in the morning his sugar is much lower. So the doctor said he will keep that in mind while adjusting his meds. We don't want him to bottom out. So all in all not a bad visit, I just hope that the medicine will work. He does not go back for a month. That seems so far away. But hopefully a lot changes between now and then! In the mean time I do need to set up appointments with the foot doctor and eye doctor. So we will def be busy with appointmens!
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