So we had our appointment with the dietitian yesterday. That was a complete waste of time. They told us stuff we already know. I know how much a serving is, I know how to read how many carbs are in a serving and to subtract the fiber from that amount. I thought it would be more along the lines of helping you figure out how to keep the foods he loves in his diet. How to do the meal plans that I read about everywhere. None of that happened.
But I do have good news to report. After dinner last night hubby's sugar was only 118!!!!! I couldn't be happier that the stronger meds are working!!!!! There is light at the end of the tunel. His sugars have been consistantly under 200!! We are making progress.
Today is his birthday. He wants pizza and wings for dinner tonight. So I am going to pizza hut to get dinner after work and to pick up his no sugar added ice cream cake from Carvel's. His mom, step dad and grandma are coming over for dinner and cake too. So it should be a good night! Two more days til the BIG party that he knows nothing about. I am so excited. I can not wait to see the look on his face. I hope it makes him happy! :)
Friday, November 30, 2007
Why Him??? That seems to be the question on his mind. I must say that I couldn't agree more. Hubby has been working the night shift this week and he was taking a quick nap before work. I had to wake him up so he could take his medicine and test his sugar before work. As he woke up he said "why bother living?" Wow, I know this is hard but I did not understand that comment. I said to him what do you mean? He said " I can't eat, I can't drink, I go to work and I am so tired I sleep during my breaks, that's why I am not eating at work. I come home and I sleep and I am still tired."
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
Dr. Appointment
Hubby woke up this morning with bad muscle cramps in his calves. He had the day off today so I called and got him in to see the doctor today instead of waiting until Monday. If the medicine has not worked yet it will not start working over the weekend! So he went and the doctor doubled his medicine and he does not seem worried, he thinks things look good. I don't know how since his numbers are the same as they have been since the last visit, but who am I and what do I know? He also explained that the muscle cramps are just because his body is going through a lot right now and that his potassium levels are fine so it is not that.
My husband works crazy hours and work swing shifts from time to time. This seems to have an effect on his sugar, because when he does not have to be up at 3:30 in the morning his sugar is much lower. So the doctor said he will keep that in mind while adjusting his meds. We don't want him to bottom out. So all in all not a bad visit, I just hope that the medicine will work. He does not go back for a month. That seems so far away. But hopefully a lot changes between now and then! In the mean time I do need to set up appointments with the foot doctor and eye doctor. So we will def be busy with appointmens!
My husband works crazy hours and work swing shifts from time to time. This seems to have an effect on his sugar, because when he does not have to be up at 3:30 in the morning his sugar is much lower. So the doctor said he will keep that in mind while adjusting his meds. We don't want him to bottom out. So all in all not a bad visit, I just hope that the medicine will work. He does not go back for a month. That seems so far away. But hopefully a lot changes between now and then! In the mean time I do need to set up appointments with the foot doctor and eye doctor. So we will def be busy with appointmens!
Tuesday, November 27, 2007
It is the simple things in life that make me happy!
So my hubby will be the BIG 30 in one week. Now I have been planning a surprise party for him since his last birthday. Ok, maybe not planning but it has always been my intent to throw him a big bash for this special occasion. Everything was going along so smoothly until we found out about the diabetes. Like I said before he loves to drink. I was planning on having a surprise party with lots of beer and pizza, wings, soda. As part of the party I am planning a poker tournament because he loves to play texas hold em. Now I have been questioning everything about the party. As it is I am not buying ANY beer. If people feel they need it, they were told to bring there own. So I have found that the Carvel's near my house is very accommodating and willing to make a sheet cake that is 1/4 no sugar added and the other 3/4 a regular cake. I am so excited about this. I also just found out that Wegman's has a wheat dough for the pizza! I was so happy that I had to share this news with my best friend. She emailed me back with a "it doesn't take much these days, does it!" How right is she? It does not take much to make me happy anymore, just the simple things in life, like living a long happy life with the love of my life!
A whole new world to us
Diabetes is a whole new world to me and my husband. My husband was just diagnosed with diabetes two weeks ago. I am already feeling the roller coaster ride of emotions and this is just the beginning. I wanted to start this blog so that I would have someplace to put down my feelings about this awful disease.
My husband is 29 and I am 26, we have been married for only 2 1/2 years and we have two beautiful children, a girl that is 8 who is my daughter from a previous relationship and we have a son together that is 3. Like I said already he was just diagnosed with diabetes. At this point we have NO clue what is going on. There are lots of theories but no answers! They believe that his diabetes is the result of a cold, but we do not know yet. Because of his age and that he does not fit the "normal" profile of a type 2 they will not call it type 2 and because he does not fit the "normal" profile of a type 1 they (they being the doctors) will not call it type 1. So we really have no idea what is in store for us yet!
Right now they are trying pills to get his sugar down, but it is still high, mostly in the 200's with some over 300 and some just under 200(rare) The doctors give you this diagnosis and send you home with a meter and "don't eat too much carbs" order and think that you can just figure this stuff out on your own. We still have another week to go until we see the dietitian. I am trying my best to make healthy foods for him and I have rid my house of "junk food" He seems to be handling it ok! But he is always hungry!
This came to us as such a surprise. He had gotten a cold about two months ago and started drinking a lot of water. We thought it was just because he was sick. Then when it continued and he was using the bathroom ALL the time I started to get concerned. Then he started getting muscle cramps in the middle of night. That is when I made an appointment for him to see the doctor. I thought he might have diabetes, but I didn't REALLY think it. I guess I was hoping he would just come home and say it was nothing! Denial I guess!
What an adjustment, and I feel like "mother hen"! LOL!! He will not test his sugar so I get up with him every morning at 3:30 to test his fasting sugar before he goes to work and make him breakfast, otherwise he wont eat! I come home at night and cook dinner and make lunches for the next day and test his sugar again before bed. Everything I do is centered around this disease! It is awful! I hate to see the man I love going through this! I just hope that we can get things under control soon and maybe I am being naive but I hope that things will get easier for us. It is hard for me to think that the man I just married is not going to be the same again and that I am caring for him already!
The one good thing that is coming from this, NO MORE BEER!!! :) He loves to drink, too much! And that was a source of problems in our relationship. I just hope he can stay away from the beer. That and watching his carbs are going to be the hardest adjustments for him to make right now.
My husband is 29 and I am 26, we have been married for only 2 1/2 years and we have two beautiful children, a girl that is 8 who is my daughter from a previous relationship and we have a son together that is 3. Like I said already he was just diagnosed with diabetes. At this point we have NO clue what is going on. There are lots of theories but no answers! They believe that his diabetes is the result of a cold, but we do not know yet. Because of his age and that he does not fit the "normal" profile of a type 2 they will not call it type 2 and because he does not fit the "normal" profile of a type 1 they (they being the doctors) will not call it type 1. So we really have no idea what is in store for us yet!
Right now they are trying pills to get his sugar down, but it is still high, mostly in the 200's with some over 300 and some just under 200(rare) The doctors give you this diagnosis and send you home with a meter and "don't eat too much carbs" order and think that you can just figure this stuff out on your own. We still have another week to go until we see the dietitian. I am trying my best to make healthy foods for him and I have rid my house of "junk food" He seems to be handling it ok! But he is always hungry!
This came to us as such a surprise. He had gotten a cold about two months ago and started drinking a lot of water. We thought it was just because he was sick. Then when it continued and he was using the bathroom ALL the time I started to get concerned. Then he started getting muscle cramps in the middle of night. That is when I made an appointment for him to see the doctor. I thought he might have diabetes, but I didn't REALLY think it. I guess I was hoping he would just come home and say it was nothing! Denial I guess!
What an adjustment, and I feel like "mother hen"! LOL!! He will not test his sugar so I get up with him every morning at 3:30 to test his fasting sugar before he goes to work and make him breakfast, otherwise he wont eat! I come home at night and cook dinner and make lunches for the next day and test his sugar again before bed. Everything I do is centered around this disease! It is awful! I hate to see the man I love going through this! I just hope that we can get things under control soon and maybe I am being naive but I hope that things will get easier for us. It is hard for me to think that the man I just married is not going to be the same again and that I am caring for him already!
The one good thing that is coming from this, NO MORE BEER!!! :) He loves to drink, too much! And that was a source of problems in our relationship. I just hope he can stay away from the beer. That and watching his carbs are going to be the hardest adjustments for him to make right now.
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