Ok, so the title of this blog has nothing to do with anything, I just feel kind of goofy! So my one fan complained that I have not updated in some time and that I needed to let world know that I was still alive.
Things have been...well...stressful to say the least over the past year. Hubby is now on insulin for his diabetes, but we feel this is a good thing. He is gaining better control and well, he will just be that much healthy because of it. They have now come to the conclusion that he is a type one. Some blood work that was done several months ago showed that his insulin function was declining and that his body is slowly loosing the ability to make insulin.
The recession has really hit home for us. Hubby does not know from week to week whether or not he is working or laid off. I was laid off from my job in December, but was lucky enough to find a great job by the end of January!! But things have not been easy. It will take so long for us to catch up on everything.
My health has not been the greatest either this year. I hope soon they can get to the bottom with what is going on inside my body!! One more doctors appointment next week, so we shall see how that goes. I will try to get back and post if I ever do find out what is going on.
Otherwise life is good, we are adjusting nicely as a family to hubby's diabetes and supporting him the best we can! And most importantly he has adjusted to diabetes as well! I am sure that no matter what life or diabetes brings us, we can weather the storm together and come out stronger!
Best wishes to all! Stay healthy! I'll be back...
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
A birthday I will never forget!
Well Friday February 1st was my 27th birthday. Happy birthday me!! :) Hubby and I went bowling, more like hubby went bowling I just watched. He is on a legue every Friday night. I wish I could have been bowling too! :( Hubby has this tooth that has needed to be pulled for the past two years and for what ever reasons he has not had the stupid tooth taken care of. Thursday he had an appointment to have it pulled and he cancelled because he did not have his FMLA papers in at work and he was afraid of getting written up. Well, I guess it does not matter now. Friday after bowling his face swelled up with in like a half hour and his tooth, throat and jaw will killing him. We went to Urgent Care and they gave him two antibiotics and some tylenol 3's. Well by Saturday he was drifting in and out of it all day, could not get out of bed and was severly dehydrates. We went to the er and they gave him some fluids and antibiotic through the iv. I had to cancel my birthday party and spend the whole day with hubby. He has been running a fever of about 102 every day now. His doctor is such an idiot, when we went on Monday to see him he asked what we wanted him to do, why were we there. You know we are new to this. I am soo worried about him. I know it will take longer for him to get well, but after four days on antibiotics shouldn't his fever be going down? What about his sugar? 180's, 190's fasting! Kindda crazy if you ask me.
We did have a small party with my in-laws, my parents were not able to come over so late and my in-laws were already at our house. We had cake and ice cream. Hubby bought me a beautiful jewelry armoire, his mom bought me a food processor, that chops my veggies for me so quickly(loving this!) and his gram gave me a gift card to JC Penney's which I will need to buy new clothes. I have lost 20lbs and nothing fits me any more! Hubby lost another 10lbs. He only weigh's 10 more lbs than me!
So I think I will always remember this birthday, maybe not in the best way, but I sure hope hubby learned a very valuable lesson...he needs to take care of himself so that this does not happen again.
We did have a small party with my in-laws, my parents were not able to come over so late and my in-laws were already at our house. We had cake and ice cream. Hubby bought me a beautiful jewelry armoire, his mom bought me a food processor, that chops my veggies for me so quickly(loving this!) and his gram gave me a gift card to JC Penney's which I will need to buy new clothes. I have lost 20lbs and nothing fits me any more! Hubby lost another 10lbs. He only weigh's 10 more lbs than me!
So I think I will always remember this birthday, maybe not in the best way, but I sure hope hubby learned a very valuable lesson...he needs to take care of himself so that this does not happen again.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Been a while...
So I thought maybe I should post an update for those who care. Hubby went to the Podiatrist and had his feet checked for the first time. That appointment went great! He still has all of his feeling and his circulation is good!
Hubby's sugar is normal most of the time now! I have also found another great product for diabetics. Stevia, due to the FDA it has to be labled as a dietary supplement, but you use it as a sweatner for your coffee or tea. It is quite expensive at $5 for a box of 50 packets, but I think that it taste good. Hubby thinks it has a slight after taste, but he just misses his sugar I think. Stevia is 100% natural, nothing artificial to cause cancer or other ailments. The one I bought is called "Sweet Leaf" and that has the added fiber inulin. It also helps support healthy liver function and a healthy immune system. As I find more great things I will be sure to share them.
I spend a lot of time researching. I am finding lots of great herbal medicines to help with diabetes. We have not decided yet if we are going to try any of them or which one to try. We think we have it narrowed down. We would like to talk to his doctor about these things first. He will prob. laugh at us, but who cares. If they don't hurt and only help heal, then what's the big deal. Oh, that's right the drug companies wont make any money! LOL!
That is about it right now. Hope everyone is having a great new year!!!
Hubby's sugar is normal most of the time now! I have also found another great product for diabetics. Stevia, due to the FDA it has to be labled as a dietary supplement, but you use it as a sweatner for your coffee or tea. It is quite expensive at $5 for a box of 50 packets, but I think that it taste good. Hubby thinks it has a slight after taste, but he just misses his sugar I think. Stevia is 100% natural, nothing artificial to cause cancer or other ailments. The one I bought is called "Sweet Leaf" and that has the added fiber inulin. It also helps support healthy liver function and a healthy immune system. As I find more great things I will be sure to share them.
I spend a lot of time researching. I am finding lots of great herbal medicines to help with diabetes. We have not decided yet if we are going to try any of them or which one to try. We think we have it narrowed down. We would like to talk to his doctor about these things first. He will prob. laugh at us, but who cares. If they don't hurt and only help heal, then what's the big deal. Oh, that's right the drug companies wont make any money! LOL!
That is about it right now. Hope everyone is having a great new year!!!
Wednesday, December 26, 2007
Crazy Days
I hope every one had a wonderful Christmas. I know we did! What a crazy past four days though. Diets, meal plans, diabetes...who has time for that around the holidays? I guess that was hubby's thought exactly. Saturday we ate out twice, which would not have been too bad if hubby had some self control! He went wayyyyyy over on the carbs. His sugar was still high in the morning. Then sunday he went to Buffalo to watch the Bills play the Giants. Hubby likes the Giants so he was happy to be celebrating a win that gaurenteed a place in the play offs at Buffalo's stadium, even if he was cold and wet! He did not eat much and drank about four beers. The same was true on Christmas eve. So on Christmas he was sick to his stomach. I told him he over did it this weekend and he has to be better about what he puts in his body. It is ok to have bad days once in a while, but it is not good to have a bad four days in a row. It took a toll on him.
The good news is that hubby can enjoy pasta again!!! Not just pasta but good authentic pasta! How you ask? "Dreamfields" makes a very authentic tasting pasta that only has 5 grams of digestable carbs. What that means is that less of the carbs effect your blood sugar! Plus it has double the fiber of regular pasta and it has a special fiber called inulin not insulin that helps with digestive health and calcium absorbtion. Long story short hubby's sugar after a big plate of lasagna...105!!! That was fabulous! To find a store where they sell dreamfields visit their website www.dreamfieldsfoods.com This pasta is soooo good. I am Italian and this is the best pasta I have ever had! Hubby is not a huge fan of pasta but he loves this one! We are hooked! :)
The kids had a wonderful Christmas, Santa brought them everything that they asked for. It was soo nice to see them so happy! Santa was good to me too. I got new pj's, slippers and a bath robe. I also got hubby some new pj's and "The Simpson Movie" that he wanted.
We went over to my mother in laws for dinner and desert. It was nice to see everyone. After eating most everyone played "pitch" with the exception of three of us that did not know how to play. Yes I am included in that three. I sat there and watched for awhile. Hubby's aunt said, "boy you two are all lovey lately" she could not get over how happy we seem together. My mother in law thinks this means she is getting another grandchild. I would love for that to happen, but hubby does not want another child. I told her not to get her hopes up!
All in all it was a great day! I hope hubby has learned his lesson about eating right and not over doing it with the beer!
The good news is that hubby can enjoy pasta again!!! Not just pasta but good authentic pasta! How you ask? "Dreamfields" makes a very authentic tasting pasta that only has 5 grams of digestable carbs. What that means is that less of the carbs effect your blood sugar! Plus it has double the fiber of regular pasta and it has a special fiber called inulin not insulin that helps with digestive health and calcium absorbtion. Long story short hubby's sugar after a big plate of lasagna...105!!! That was fabulous! To find a store where they sell dreamfields visit their website www.dreamfieldsfoods.com This pasta is soooo good. I am Italian and this is the best pasta I have ever had! Hubby is not a huge fan of pasta but he loves this one! We are hooked! :)
The kids had a wonderful Christmas, Santa brought them everything that they asked for. It was soo nice to see them so happy! Santa was good to me too. I got new pj's, slippers and a bath robe. I also got hubby some new pj's and "The Simpson Movie" that he wanted.
We went over to my mother in laws for dinner and desert. It was nice to see everyone. After eating most everyone played "pitch" with the exception of three of us that did not know how to play. Yes I am included in that three. I sat there and watched for awhile. Hubby's aunt said, "boy you two are all lovey lately" she could not get over how happy we seem together. My mother in law thinks this means she is getting another grandchild. I would love for that to happen, but hubby does not want another child. I told her not to get her hopes up!
All in all it was a great day! I hope hubby has learned his lesson about eating right and not over doing it with the beer!
Friday, December 21, 2007
Diabetes education
So we met with the diabetes educator yesterday. She was very knowledgeable and easy to talk with. This appointment went so much better than the dietitian!! At least the educator realizes that hubby is young, fit, works a hard labor intesive job and that he needs to put a few pounds back on. She agreed that hubby should be eating a 2400 calorie diet and he should be eating a few more carbs during the day.
She agree's with me that she believe's hubby is not a type 2 diabetic. She is recommending that the doctor do some specific blood test that will help in determining what type of diabetes he has. She said that is cholesterol for the most part was good. It was a little out of wack but she said that was only because his sugar was sooo high when they did the test. He does not have hight blood pressure and he is not over-weight and that is why she thinks there is something more going on with him than type 2. We spoke brievely about type 1.5, this type of diabetes is similar to type 1 with the exception that if they are put on certian meds that increase insulin production and slow the release of sugar from the liver, the person's sugar will go down and the meds will help for a few years until the body eventually destroyes the remaining beta cells. Drugs used to help with insulin resistance will not work, because there is no insulin resistance. Judging by what she has told us and what the doctor has told us, my own research and hubby's cousin that is a doctor is telling us, it sure sounds like the type 1.5 is what is going on here. I guess only time will tell. She also is recommending that the doctor allow him to start exercising. He really wants to get started and so do I. It will help with controlling his blood sugar.
She also mentioned that hubby's bad teeth and other dental problems are affecting his sugar. They will make it high. So the sooner we get those teeth pulled and get his gums better the better!!!! So I will be on the phone with the dentist today to see what the hold up is.
She is very impressed with how well we are handling things. His sugars are very close to his target range and we are making smart decisions with the food that he eats. She also agreed that he needed to be eating a 2400 calorie diet, so he can eat more than what the dietitian first told him.
She also gave him a new monitor that works better than the one we have. It is really not the monitor but the lancing device that does not work well. We cant seem to get enough blood. But now we have to use up the stuff we have with our current monitor before we can get a script for the new stuff to go with our new meter. That will probably take about two more months. I have 200 strips at home to use up!
Hubby was funny. She was showing us how to use the new monitor and how to make getting the blood easier, so she had hubby test his sugar and he would not do it. I thought for sure that he would be too embarressed to have me do it in front of her like that, but no he don't care, he will NOT test his own sugar!
She was very helpfull and I think the appointment went great! We learned a lot! She even gave me some advise on different things I can do for lunches for hubby. That's what I really need. I am not creative with food and I double guess myself all the time. I always wonder if I am giving him enough food, the right combinations of food etc. She said she was prob creating more work for me. I had to chuckle, all of this has been more work for me. It doesn't matter if it is that much more work for me. This is the hand we have been dealt and we have to make the best of it. If that meens that I have to spend more time in the kitchen then that is what I will do. I only want what is best for him and for him to be happy. Don't get me wrong we both have our moments when we don't want to deal with this, when we feel depressed about all of this. But I think the majority of the time we are handling things head on. We are not going to let diabetes get the best of us! And together we can accomplish GREAT things!
She agree's with me that she believe's hubby is not a type 2 diabetic. She is recommending that the doctor do some specific blood test that will help in determining what type of diabetes he has. She said that is cholesterol for the most part was good. It was a little out of wack but she said that was only because his sugar was sooo high when they did the test. He does not have hight blood pressure and he is not over-weight and that is why she thinks there is something more going on with him than type 2. We spoke brievely about type 1.5, this type of diabetes is similar to type 1 with the exception that if they are put on certian meds that increase insulin production and slow the release of sugar from the liver, the person's sugar will go down and the meds will help for a few years until the body eventually destroyes the remaining beta cells. Drugs used to help with insulin resistance will not work, because there is no insulin resistance. Judging by what she has told us and what the doctor has told us, my own research and hubby's cousin that is a doctor is telling us, it sure sounds like the type 1.5 is what is going on here. I guess only time will tell. She also is recommending that the doctor allow him to start exercising. He really wants to get started and so do I. It will help with controlling his blood sugar.
She also mentioned that hubby's bad teeth and other dental problems are affecting his sugar. They will make it high. So the sooner we get those teeth pulled and get his gums better the better!!!! So I will be on the phone with the dentist today to see what the hold up is.
She is very impressed with how well we are handling things. His sugars are very close to his target range and we are making smart decisions with the food that he eats. She also agreed that he needed to be eating a 2400 calorie diet, so he can eat more than what the dietitian first told him.
She also gave him a new monitor that works better than the one we have. It is really not the monitor but the lancing device that does not work well. We cant seem to get enough blood. But now we have to use up the stuff we have with our current monitor before we can get a script for the new stuff to go with our new meter. That will probably take about two more months. I have 200 strips at home to use up!
Hubby was funny. She was showing us how to use the new monitor and how to make getting the blood easier, so she had hubby test his sugar and he would not do it. I thought for sure that he would be too embarressed to have me do it in front of her like that, but no he don't care, he will NOT test his own sugar!
She was very helpfull and I think the appointment went great! We learned a lot! She even gave me some advise on different things I can do for lunches for hubby. That's what I really need. I am not creative with food and I double guess myself all the time. I always wonder if I am giving him enough food, the right combinations of food etc. She said she was prob creating more work for me. I had to chuckle, all of this has been more work for me. It doesn't matter if it is that much more work for me. This is the hand we have been dealt and we have to make the best of it. If that meens that I have to spend more time in the kitchen then that is what I will do. I only want what is best for him and for him to be happy. Don't get me wrong we both have our moments when we don't want to deal with this, when we feel depressed about all of this. But I think the majority of the time we are handling things head on. We are not going to let diabetes get the best of us! And together we can accomplish GREAT things!
Friday, November 30, 2007
Dietitian
So we had our appointment with the dietitian yesterday. That was a complete waste of time. They told us stuff we already know. I know how much a serving is, I know how to read how many carbs are in a serving and to subtract the fiber from that amount. I thought it would be more along the lines of helping you figure out how to keep the foods he loves in his diet. How to do the meal plans that I read about everywhere. None of that happened.
But I do have good news to report. After dinner last night hubby's sugar was only 118!!!!! I couldn't be happier that the stronger meds are working!!!!! There is light at the end of the tunel. His sugars have been consistantly under 200!! We are making progress.
Today is his birthday. He wants pizza and wings for dinner tonight. So I am going to pizza hut to get dinner after work and to pick up his no sugar added ice cream cake from Carvel's. His mom, step dad and grandma are coming over for dinner and cake too. So it should be a good night! Two more days til the BIG party that he knows nothing about. I am so excited. I can not wait to see the look on his face. I hope it makes him happy! :)
But I do have good news to report. After dinner last night hubby's sugar was only 118!!!!! I couldn't be happier that the stronger meds are working!!!!! There is light at the end of the tunel. His sugars have been consistantly under 200!! We are making progress.
Today is his birthday. He wants pizza and wings for dinner tonight. So I am going to pizza hut to get dinner after work and to pick up his no sugar added ice cream cake from Carvel's. His mom, step dad and grandma are coming over for dinner and cake too. So it should be a good night! Two more days til the BIG party that he knows nothing about. I am so excited. I can not wait to see the look on his face. I hope it makes him happy! :)
Why Him??? That seems to be the question on his mind. I must say that I couldn't agree more. Hubby has been working the night shift this week and he was taking a quick nap before work. I had to wake him up so he could take his medicine and test his sugar before work. As he woke up he said "why bother living?" Wow, I know this is hard but I did not understand that comment. I said to him what do you mean? He said " I can't eat, I can't drink, I go to work and I am so tired I sleep during my breaks, that's why I am not eating at work. I come home and I sleep and I am still tired."
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
I have to say that this devastated me. I guess I just feel like the kids and I are not enough reason for him to want to be here on this earth and that really hurts. It seems like the booze is more important to him then us. I feel awful for him. I do not want to see him going through this. It is so hard on all of us. I can not even imagine what he is going through.
I have often times wondered what has kept the two of us together. To put it nicely we had a rough relationship. There were many times that I thought about calling it quits and just walking out the door. But something kept me there, something beyond my control. As time as gone on things between us have gotten better. Strangely enough things now are the best they have ever been between us. I believe that we choose the life we are going to live before we are born and that we carry the experiences of past lives with us to help us through the tough times in our current life. I believe that our soul needs this to grow spiritually. Could it be that the reason I never left was because, this is what I chose? A lesson I needed to learn? A lesson I needed to help him learn? Maybe this is all happening to us for a good reason. To help us grow spiritually and to help us become a better couple, better parents and better people; healthier people! He was headed down a bad road with all of his drinking and the live style he was living. Maybe this is for the best. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.
I love this man soooo much and I just want to take his pain away and make everything better again! But I can't do that! It hurts me so much to watch this bring him down. But this is not the end of our life, this is the beginning of a new life, a healthier way to live and to bring up our children, so hopefully they never have to deal with this disease. We need to learn how to control the diabetes and not let the diabetes control us!
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